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carriero_logs2012-07-10 08:54 pm
carriero_npc) wrote in carriero_logs2012-07-10 08:54 pm
The Groups Will Support You Now [OPEN/MANDATORY]
WHO: Every patient without an explicit exemption. (This means, if you are not on hiatus, please tag into this log, because your character will be there.) WHAT: Treatment.
WHAT: Hashed out pretty clearly here.
WHERE: The treatment rooms.
WHEN: July 10th, when else! From approximately 9 AM to 1 PM.
WARNING(S): It's a Carriero therapy session.
Please pick out your character's ID and tag into the appropriate thread.
WHAT: Hashed out pretty clearly here.
WHERE: The treatment rooms.
WHEN: July 10th, when else! From approximately 9 AM to 1 PM.
WARNING(S): It's a Carriero therapy session.
Please pick out your character's ID and tag into the appropriate thread.
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"Stop acting like you know it all. You ain't that much older than me anyway. And you don't know half of what Linda's capable of. She'll be listening in right now, waiting to learn all our dirty secrets to use against us. So excuse me for not wanting to end up with a giant stuffed toy Medic at the end of my bed or more nails slammed into my head."
She glared. "None of what happened in here is my bloody fault. In case no one's noticed, LINDA, all the ba stuff's happened to me. So you can just SHUT UP, Willow. Quite frankly, I'm not interested in your bad decisions and I can't help you anyway. So why don't you go find someone who's interested?"
She began to bite her thumb nail so short that it would eventually draw blood. She was upset, and Andrea becomes volatile when she's upset. She needs to hit out, make someone fewl as bad as she does. Because nobody can understand how bad she feels every day.
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"I would, but if you haven't noticed, we can't leave," she said pointedly. "You need to chill. I know bad stuff has happened, but guess what, it's never going to not happen. That's how it is." When you signed up to fight demons, you took that on, and maybe she hadn't done that exactly but they were in a similar situation here.
"You have to learn how to deal with it or you'll... you'll just explode. Sometimes literally explode. I might not know everything but I think I'm doing a lot better at that than you are right now."
It's taking an effort to stay calm when she's being provoked, but Willow really has been working on that, and it's made easier by how much of a teenager Andrea obviously is.
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She shook her head, and stood up, heading straight for a wall.
"LET ME OUT OF HERE RIGHT NOW! I am NOT talking about it. You can't bloody make me. Let me out!!!" She kicked the wall, slamming her hands on it.
She turned back to Willow, her hair dischevelled and and her face furious.
"Look, I don't doubt you've been through shit. But don't you dare tell me to accept it. Nobody should have to live through this. No one. But I don't know how to deal with it. How the hell do you deal with dying? " she shook her head. "Have you ever been murdered? Ever felt a maniac rip own your chest and snap your ribs and show you your own heart? How would you deal with that, Willow?" she was furious, and the sarcasm in her tone was hard to miss.
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"I deal with it because we don't have a choice," she snaps, fingers tightening into white-knuckled fists as she glares at her. Willow is compassionate at heart, but she is also defensive, and this topic is one she's dealt with time and time again.
"You know what happens when you don't deal? More people die. More people get hurt-- you get hurt worse. I tore someone's skin off of his body and flayed him alive because I couldn't handle seeing the person I loved most die in my arms.
"If you want to feel what that's like, what it is to live with that afterward, be my guest. I know it's not fair. I know! But it being unfair doesn't change anything. It doesn't go away, Andrea, it's never going to."
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"You killed a man? YOU?" she doesn't think Willow's serious. Rea has her pegged as a good girl, and a know it all. But definitely not someone with much fire to them.
"You're lying."
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She sighs, and looks away. Willow is a mess of conflicting emotions. "He shot my girlfriend, he-- shot Tara. And he shot my best friend, too. Buffy lived because I saved her life, but Tara...
"I didn't let anything stop me from getting revenge. Nothing. I would've kept going until there was a pile of bodies, not just Warren and Andrew and Jonathan, but everyone that got in my way." She would've ended the world, but that sounds so melodramatic and unbelievably to say to someone that isn't used to it, so she keeps that to herself.
"I may not have died before, but I know people who have, and I know what it's like to have to live with something you don't think it's possible to live with."
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"So you're a murderer? Same as me? Cos I get the revenge - I killed Medic after he killed me..."
She bit her bottom lip whilst she processes this much more passionate Willow.
"So how do you do it? You're not like me. I want to hurt everyone, all the time. If There were knives here, I'd already have stabbed you."
She pauses, to see if that shocks Willow. She is telling the truth though; she wouldnt have hesitated.
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In truth she's uncomfortable to hear that she'd have been stabbed. She's not shocked-- she's dealt with plenty of violent people-- but it makes her certain that she can never truly trust her, not really. She just can't trust someone that would turn around and attack her when things got emotional, because things got emotional all the time. Willow turns more closed off, wary.
"Remind me never to put any knives near you," she says, as levelly as she can, trying to breathe through how tense the room is. And she'd been listening earlier. As much as it may have seemed like she'd glossed over it, she'd heard what Andrea had said about what Medic did. "He probably deserved it, you killing him.
"But just because he deserved it, and so did Warren, doesn't mean we can become murderers. Trying to control yourself is hard. You have to do it every day, and you don't get a break-- you just can't trust yourself. But to me, it's... it's worth it. It's what Tara would have wanted me to do, and I couldn't bear to hurt my friends again. I won't let that happen."
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"So you do it for your friends?" she sighed. "I don't have any here. Not really... But that doesn't explain how you do it. Control yourself, I mean."
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"But mostly you have to want to. Really, really want to. Being around people you trust helps, too."
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She sighed.
"Anne and Linda are going to mess that up too. No way are they gonna let me be happy. And then there's you. And you must hate me... and I don't blame you. Maybe I hate you too."
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"And I'm sure you can, too."
Willow's mostly saying this out of pure habit in comforting others. She sincerely means that she thinks Andrea could turn herself around, but she's privately doubtful that she'll want to. She knows that's far from encouraging to voice, so she keeps that to herself. This girl really is far too much like Faith.