The Groups Will Support You Now [OPEN/MANDATORY]

[carriero_npc]

WHO: Every patient without an explicit exemption. (This means, if you are not on hiatus, please tag into this log, because your character will be there.) WHAT: Treatment.
WHAT: Hashed out pretty clearly here.
WHERE: The treatment rooms.
WHEN: July 10th, when else! From approximately 9 AM to 1 PM.
WARNING(S): It's a Carriero therapy session.
Please pick out your character's ID and tag into the appropriate thread.

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[guiltapalooza]

"I did. And I want to pretend otherwise, but... I'd do it again."

She sighs, and looks away. Willow is a mess of conflicting emotions. "He shot my girlfriend, he-- shot Tara. And he shot my best friend, too. Buffy lived because I saved her life, but Tara...

"I didn't let anything stop me from getting revenge. Nothing. I would've kept going until there was a pile of bodies, not just Warren and Andrew and Jonathan, but everyone that got in my way." She would've ended the world, but that sounds so melodramatic and unbelievably to say to someone that isn't used to it, so she keeps that to herself.

"I may not have died before, but I know people who have, and I know what it's like to have to live with something you don't think it's possible to live with."

[rea_norton]

For once, she listened without interrupting. She sat down again, curled up on the sofa, eyes wide with fascination and sadness.

"So you're a murderer? Same as me? Cos I get the revenge - I killed Medic after he killed me..."

She bit her bottom lip whilst she processes this much more passionate Willow.

"So how do you do it? You're not like me. I want to hurt everyone, all the time. If There were knives here, I'd already have stabbed you."

She pauses, to see if that shocks Willow. She is telling the truth though; she wouldnt have hesitated.

[guiltapalooza]

Just a couple years ago Andrea would have been dead on about Willow. She was a goody two shoes, she followed every rule, and she never would have dreamed of hurting anyone. But things change, and she'd changed.

In truth she's uncomfortable to hear that she'd have been stabbed. She's not shocked-- she's dealt with plenty of violent people-- but it makes her certain that she can never truly trust her, not really. She just can't trust someone that would turn around and attack her when things got emotional, because things got emotional all the time. Willow turns more closed off, wary.

"Remind me never to put any knives near you," she says, as levelly as she can, trying to breathe through how tense the room is. And she'd been listening earlier. As much as it may have seemed like she'd glossed over it, she'd heard what Andrea had said about what Medic did. "He probably deserved it, you killing him.

"But just because he deserved it, and so did Warren, doesn't mean we can become murderers. Trying to control yourself is hard. You have to do it every day, and you don't get a break-- you just can't trust yourself. But to me, it's... it's worth it. It's what Tara would have wanted me to do, and I couldn't bear to hurt my friends again. I won't let that happen."

[rea_norton]

She in turn, shrugged. Most people were at least nervous around Rea, or wary of her. It was the make up, the clothes... And her attitude. She does like blood. Always had. So it didn't feel at all unusual that Willow would be wary.

"So you do it for your friends?" she sighed. "I don't have any here. Not really... But that doesn't explain how you do it. Control yourself, I mean."

[guiltapalooza]

"Mine aren't here either, but I'm trying to make new ones," she admits, a little melancholy about it. "I can't do it on my own. I spent a few months recovering in England after I-- killed Warren, and I learned how to meditate, and stuff to do instead of self-destruct. It was all very New Age.

"But mostly you have to want to. Really, really want to. Being around people you trust helps, too."

[rea_norton]

"Hard in here, though, innit? To trust people, I mean? I trusted Eridan - and he attacked me. I trusted Kanaya... well, she's just messed up. And now who's left? Taylor - my best friend and my worst enemy. Gokudera -"

She sighed.

"Anne and Linda are going to mess that up too. No way are they gonna let me be happy. And then there's you. And you must hate me... and I don't blame you. Maybe I hate you too."

[guiltapalooza]

"I don't hate you," she denies, though she looks somewhat glum now. On Willow it's hard to take seriously, more of a pout than truly morose, and therefore slightly comical. "You just remind me of someone I know. Someone who didn't find trusting people all that easy, either. But... after she made a lot of mistakes-- and I mean a lot-- she turned herself around.

"And I'm sure you can, too."

Willow's mostly saying this out of pure habit in comforting others. She sincerely means that she thinks Andrea could turn herself around, but she's privately doubtful that she'll want to. She knows that's far from encouraging to voice, so she keeps that to herself. This girl really is far too much like Faith.