"Mine aren't here either, but I'm trying to make new ones," she admits, a little melancholy about it. "I can't do it on my own. I spent a few months recovering in England after I-- killed Warren, and I learned how to meditate, and stuff to do instead of self-destruct. It was all very New Age.

"But mostly you have to want to. Really, really want to. Being around people you trust helps, too."